Equality and Non-discrimination

SWV’s work is two-tiered: 1) to raise awareness of discrimination and its visibility and 2) to raise the capacities of both victims and state actors to fight discrimination. Moreover, SWV empowers women victims of discrimination, and watchdog the duty bearers to implement their international and national obligations.
SWV is a founding member of the Anti-discrimination Coalition, which is a coalition of various CSOs established in 2015.
SWV has incorporated into its activities efforts on combating discrimination against LGBTI persons in Armenia. SWV, seeks to overcome homophobia/biphobia/transphobia through public awareness raising, positive media visibility, and promoting human rights.

Romik

Romik is from a country where poets converse with God, and they talk with him about love. Romik is from a country where people sometimes even kill for the sake of love. Iran is a country of boundless beauty, with its diversity and rich culture. That’s where Romik Danial was born. He is a prominent representative of the Armenian community in Iran, an active young man and an honorary graduate of a religious studies program.

“I’ve felt different from others since childhood, since I was 10. I felt like a stranger among the other boys. I never engaged in their conversations and I didn’t share their interests. I felt more comfortable around girls, but I realized that I was a stranger for them too.

“Sometimes it seemed to me that I was on the wrong kind of planet, or I got here by mistake. For example, suddenly the skies opened and I fell down like an angel, one of a kind. I didn’t know what it was, but I realized that I was different from my fellow human beings,” says Romik.

It took him years to find people ‘of his own kind’. Romik tried to find the missing puzzle piece to his personality in community work, in church, at school, among his friends, but all his efforts were in vain. He simply didn’t know what exactly he was looking for.

“I first heard the word ‘gay’ from my mother. I remember that she was watching a TV series on a satellite channel, and there was a same-sex couple there. I suddenly realized that those people’s love was quite understandable and close to me. And my mother immediately said: ‘oh, look at those gays! How do you like that?’ And my father wondered, who the ‘gays’ were.

“My mother answered that ‘a gay’ was a man who loved another man. That day I realized that I belonged to that very group. That was exactly how I could describe my feelings. But, at the same time, I noticed my parents’ extremely negative attitude and I thought, it was wrong,” said Romik.

Romik was seeking answers to the questions of his primary concern amidst a lack of access to the Internet and limited information. Sometimes he could hear his acquaintances chattering about him. He didn’t fully understand who he was, but he hated those characteristics. So, he did his best to prove the opposite.

“It’s just unbearable to be a stranger, to be different. It’s terrible, when you clearly understand that your life and thoughts aren’t actually yours, that you are split in two, you don’t understand your essence. You are living your life at the behest of your family, community and traditions. It just ruins you. You always want to run away, but you don’t know where, because you don’t know why.

“After agonizing much, I finally found peace of mind when I first traveled to Armenia in 2000. Surprisingly, it was a homeland where I had never been before. It was a foreign country, but as soon as I crossed the border, I was overwhelmed by a feeling of peace, a feeling of being at home. At that moment I was happy, tranquil and safe,” says Romik.

When Romik returned home two weeks later, he was already thinking of moving to Armenia. This journey marked the beginning of a new stage of self-discovery for him. Romik was putting together, piece by piece, his life, thoughts and feelings. And he finally decided that he would no longer live a lie:

“I’d been seeking answers to many questions in church. I’d been trying to find them there until I heard a hate speech in church itself. It put everything inside me upside down: it turned out that the church I believed in didn’t accept and trust me. It generated more new questions, rather than offered any answers. I was asking God: if You created me, then what’s the purpose of this book which is against me? Where does the mistake lie – in me or in it? If you created me in your own image, then how could I be a mistake?”

Those questions really bothered me. I quit church in order to find the answers to those questions myself. I started reading sacred books of different religions. Here is one interesting quote from the Quran: “Allah is closer to you than your jugular vein.” Thus, having gotten familiar with different religious teachings, I realized that God was within me, thus I couldn’t be a mistake. The imaginary, artificial line between right and wrong had disappeared. I exist, and I am who I am,” he said.

Now Romik believes in God, but without any mediators. He lives in harmony with himself, and with the one who is closer than the jugular vein. He now also knows the most important principle –‘do not judge’.

 

 

 

 

Romik made the final decision a few years later, in 2011. He told his family members he was moving to Armenia, because he didn’t want to live a double life, and moreover, to live someone else’s life. People like him are executed in Iran.

“By that time I’d already been engaged to a young lady, seeking to create a traditional family. Later on, I realized that it was not only wrong, but pointless. No one would ever have been happy in that family. I had no right to make another person feel unhappy. Living a lie became unbearable for me. I believe that it’s the greatest tragedy of our community, that people consciously live in a lie, not even trying to fight against it.

“People often don’t even understand that there is no such thing as a half-truth, that it’s the same lie. People prefer to think that they don’t lie, but rather conceal the truth or ‘wrap’ it in beautifully crafted words. It’s not my thing. I just can’t do it that way. So, I moved to Armenia, determined never to lie about myself,” says Romik.

He quickly found a job in Armenia. He met up with the members of the LGBT-community there and realized that there were other people with the same experience and fears, that he wasn’t an angel who dropped from the open skies. He realized that he was just a human being, ordinary, different, special, like all other people on earth. He met many people, but in the course of time he started choosing his environment more carefully. Romik excluded those from his environment who didn’t accept his lifestyle. Sometimes, it happened so that others decided to distance themselves from him. Anyway, Romik has never changed his approach, that is, to live in harmony with himself, rather than with the community.

“I’m sure that homosexuals’ relatives, especially their parents, know the truth about them. They often conceal it, pretending that everything is fine, everything is ‘normal’, like with other people. But that doesn’t change anything. Such people do exist, and just pretending that it’s not so won’t make them disappear. Nothing will change, except that there will be one more lie,” says Romik.

Narek

“I was the last person to learn who I was. It was unfair. My schoolmates called me ‘faggot’, but I didn’t even know what it was. I just understood that I was different, one of a kind,” says Narek.

Narek spent 24 years of his life in absolute solitude and self-denial. It takes a great deal of courage to accept something that is unacceptable to others. There were stages of struggles and disappointments constantly replacing each other, with Narek’s life somewhere in the midst of it.

“Although I had some information, and I could compare it and understand who I was, there were numerous internal barriers that I found hard to overcome. I denied myself, but, at the same time, I didn’t want to live according to the customs, since I understood that it was self-inflicted violence.

“Now, as I recall that period, I feel pity for myself. No matter how strange it may seem, it requires a great deal of energy just to live an ordinary life: to play a role at work, at home, in the family, to struggle, to accept or deny oneself. This permanent stress is exhausting for a human being,” says Narek.

 

 

 

Narek accepted himself only when he turned 24, but he couldn’t come to terms with his essence. Throughout that period he fell in love and went through a great heartbreak:

“It turned out that I fell in love with a married man. He also loved me. Our relationship lasted for 8 months. I was physically and psychologically addicted to the person who I loved. However, the feeling of remorse, concerns for his wife and family, as well as realization of the fact that I was doing something wrong, finally won over it. Then I decided that love wasn’t meant for me, and I even reconciled myself to that idea,” said Narek.

His reticence deprived Narek of a chance to communicate with other members of the community and meet new people. He was facing his problems alone. It was then that he finally decided never to marry in his life. However, this solitude was unbearable sometimes:

“It’s not just a matter of private life. I was absolutely alone in every sense of the word: there wasn’t anyone like me who I knew and could just talk to. I really didn’t know a single homosexual in Armenia. In this case your life turns into a continuous chain of struggle, lies, self-defense, self-abnegation, and all of a sudden you come to accept it,’ says Narek.

Once, in yet another fit of desperation, Narek visited a dating website. As a man with low self-esteem, he didn’t dare write first, including to Romik, though he’d liked his photo for quite long. Narek hoped for a chance, for a stroke of good fortune.

The last desperate attempt to find each other became a salvation for Romik and Narek. They were dating each other for a couple of weeks. Then they fell in love with each other and started a family in several weeks. However, before that, they had to overcome numerous barriers and fears:

“Now I’m happy, that’s for sure. But I’m also more cautious now. In fact, I started facing more discrimination when I got engaged in a serious, long-term relationship with Narek. When you are responsible solely for yourself, you are calmer and more courageous. But when you realize that the life of your beloved one depends on you, you are more careful, calculating and thinking over your actions:

“In the beginning of our relationship, it usually took us quite long to decide where to go out for dinner so as to avoid discrimination. Anyway, it was worth it! It was worth struggling for what we have now,” says Romik.

All those failed past attempts, suppressed emotions, and, finally, that strange feeling of happiness, made them feel scared, especially Narek, who had never been a member of the community, and who had never heard or seen the ‘people like him’:

“We first met each other at the screening of the film ‘Listen to me’. I didn’t know anybody there, but suddenly I heard stories which were so similar to those from my life, I saw the problems that I was facing myself. I had some mixed, incomprehensible feelings. Afterwards, when it turned out that we were supposed to go to a café after the movie, I really wanted to run away from that place out of fear, because I didn’t know what would happen next. Now, I’m very happy that I failed to escape,” says Narek.

All those disappointments that Narek experienced in the past, were confronted with Romik’s clear-cut vision of happiness and family life. Things that Narek considered unreasonably daring even to dream about, soon became a reality:

“Now I can afford the luxury of thinking about the future of my family, even about children. It’s really a luxury, because I had never had high expectations for my future in the first 24 years of my life. Besides, Romik made me stronger as a person. Now I live in harmony with myself, and that’s very important,” says Narek.

 

The couple speaks freely about their engagement. Yet, they are cautious, because Narek’s parents are still unaware of their son’s orientation. Romik doesn’t think it makes sense to disclose the truth at this stage:

“It’s not that I don’t want Narek’s parents to know about us. Of course I do. I just know that they will never support us. I can imagine all the risks associated with it. I told my parents about my orientation just to stop them pressuring me to get married. Although they had to accept it after a certain period of time, there were still too many negative emotions.

“Now, when Narek thinks about it, I just ask him: what will it change? Nothing. No matter whether they accept it or not, everything will remain as it is. But our family will have to go through yet another difficult period. I don’t see any point doing it at this stage. And also, I’m sure that deep down Narek’s mother knows everything, because her son experienced a 180-degree change right in front of her eyes. Her son is happy and that cannot be overlooked,” says Romik.

Today, Romik and Narek dream about having children, who, as Romik put it, will become a sign of their victory:

“I imagine our children some 20 years later, when they will become the next link in the chain of struggle, thus consolidating this triumph. I wish they could say ‘yes, we’ve been raised in a same-sex family, but that hasn’t prevented us from becoming successful, educated and happy people’. In Armenia, people are sitting in the trenches of their own way of thinking, shooting at each other from different angles. Things can’t be changed this way. I wish our children could raise the ‘white flag’ between those trenches,” says Romik Danial.

 Sona Martirosyan

 

This article has been produced with the assistance of the European Union. The contents of the article are the sole responsibility of the author and can in no way be taken to reflect the views of the European Union.

The article has been prepared within the frames of the EU-funded project “Solidarity Network for LGBTI in Armenia and Georgia” implemented by the South Caucasus Regional Office of the Heinrich Boell Foundation in cooperation with the Women’s Initiatives Supporting Group (WISG), "Public Information and Need of Knowledge" NGO (PINK Armenia), the Human Rights Education and Monitoring Center (EMC), and Society Without Violence (SWV).

 

Despite the active work done by human rights organizations in the last few years, lesbian, gay, bisexual and transsexual people continue to face discrimination, often are a victim of hate speech, and come across threats every day. Because of these reasons very few people take the risk to come out and publicly identify themselves as a member of the LGBT community. However, it is double the challenge for women to reveal their sexual orientation, since they also experience gender based violence and discrimination constantly. “Ankakh” weekly newspaper has spoken with three women from the LGBT community and gathered their testimonies on challenges they’ve encountered in life and still do every day.

 

Only during 2011-2013, 5891 LGBTI  people have emigrated from Armenia, which was found out from Pink Armenia's research, called ''The impact of LGBTI people emmigration on the economic indicators of Armenia''. Besides the general stimulating factors of people's emigration from Armenia, there are also specific factors for LGBTI  people-discrimination, homophobia, as a result: physical security threat, defenceless from the goverment, family problems, harassments, being blackmailed, sex change related problems and etc.

''The situation of the LGBTI individuals and human rights in Armenia'' study, conducted by ''Society Without Violence'', reveals the legal gaps in the LGBTI people's rights in Armenia and law-enforcement practice common in the state. It outlines the main issues and gaps related to equality and non-discrimination, life and security, work, education, rights of health and social security, as well as freedom of expression.

Another study by Pink Armenia, ''The attitude of society towards LGBTI  people in Armenia'' introduces in details stereotypes common in society about LGBTI  people, the nature and bases of intolerance.

Through these 3 studies, it's possible to have a general and theoretical understanding of the situation of the LGBTI  people's rights in Armenia and the main causes of their emigration. This article, consisting of 2 parts, will introduce stories of 4 Armenian citizens- lesbian, gay ,bisexual and transgender, who have moved to different European countries. This also will help to understand the reasons why LGBTI  people leave Armenia, from the first source and based on private cases.

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